 Sara Rant - part one 2003-09-12 ~ 1:51 p.m.  Warning.... railing rant I have a 21 yr old daughter who cannot get her life together. For a brief time, she had a home and a job. She lost both. She is homeless again. This is a fairly regular event for her this last year. She wants to come here and stay on my couch while she 'gets her life together'. She makes this statement often. She gets fired up... commited to change. Grand plans. Sometimes worthy plans. Mostly half thought out. Then the focus goes... the fire leaves... and she's back to old habits that often spiral into worse ones. She thinks she wants to get things together and take Lilly back to Phoenix with her. She has a one way ticket here... no job here or there... No home there when she goes back. No real place to stay. Lilly has been here since May of last year. Since then she has come a long way. She has nightmares less often. She speaks much better. She socializes better. She still has issues worrying about having food. Sometimes she'll hide food... or just keep telling us she's "berry berry hungry" all day. Sara says she didn't leave Lilly with just anyone when she had her. If leaving her with the same person she managed to get moved into her house is not leaving her with just anyone ... I guess she is right. We'll never know what happened to Lilly during that time. Daniel will leave if Sara lives here. His anger with her about the situation is, at least at this point, is past ignoring. So, I end up with a child that won't do what she proclaims she'll do, and the other one ~ who helps to some extent, leaving. I worry about what Sara would take Lilly back to. My heart just breaks at that thought. I can't think about it for very long. I am at a loss. Utterly.
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